today was no better.
in fact, i can almost say it was worse.
had it not been for rachael, bryce, emily, & riley..
today would have been ten times worse.
so i'm really thankful for those people.
i don't know if i'm going back this time.
my mom always used to say..
"if someone hurts you once, shame on them.
if they hurt you twice, shame on you."
well this is far past the second time.
i'm just tired of people in general.
but i'll try to be ok.
i walked home today.
all by myself.
it was actually nice though, having time to think,
without a single distraction.
i think i might walk to school tomorrow morning.
then start walking home from now on on tuesday, thursdays, and fridays [the days i don't have yoga].
i could use the exercise anyways.
i'm also going to forget about everything troublesome.
except for the current problem.
we'll see how this goes.
today i started thinking,
about the time at the very beginning of the year
when i had just got home from the river,
& brandon called me just to make sure i got home ok.
& even though we were just friends
& i've never thought of him as more than that,
it really meant a lot.
just knowing that someone really cared.
& thinking of it almost makes me cry.
i miss when there was a 'palm springs crew'
when we all would take the bus to the river.
or the mall.
or wherever.
& everything was good.
i like grass a lot.
it's my favorite thing in the entire world.
i also like trees. they're about the same as grass on the list.
and i like the sky.
i like it better when it's dark,
but even when it's light, i still like it.
i like them all because they're real.
and hardly anything else is anymore.
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